Huimin

Everything is over... It has come to the end.... I am not going to think abt them any more, cause it really hurting.... If I think too much, my heart will hurt and i will also start to cry...... Everything has come to the end......  

Today I saw asther's grandma, i ask asther's grandma where asther she say she sleeping...  I tell i must totally forget about her...   At 10.30am I had totally forget about her.... To me she just a person that I don't know...   Same to Mei qi(Ng) and cholthicha....  I also forget about them.....   I want to forget about them....   Cannot think of them....   Must forget their name also..........

Very hard to forget about them....  How can i forget about them????  I want to forget them...   Why so diffcult??? Forget their name and their faces....   It was so hurting to me....  I want to forget them totally.... I hope my mind can forget about them....

Today I lost a bit of memory of asther, cholthicah and Mei Qi(Ng)...  I forget their play with me...  They talk to me...Everything they did to me I have forgotten.... They memory in my mind I slowly slowly forget.......   what can I do to totally forget about them...... I want to forget about them in my mind totally...  

21 December 2011 I quarrel with asther and it had past 4 days..  Their memory to i slowly slowly had forget... I really want to forget about them..  It really hurting me...   so I must forget about them...

when I heard the song last time asther  use to sing i will start to cry...   when I heard the last time i sing to asther i will also cry....  It really hurt my heart... I feel like i want to cry out....  but, i scare my mother worry...  I was sad...   My heart is full of pain...

Everything has come to the end...  It really hurt my heart when I think too much of asther and cholthicha...   cuz, I scold asther cholthicha was also there, so cholthicha heard everything and she will hate me more....  I wiil forget about her in my life....     I will act like lost memory... It really hurt my heart and feeling

The day before yesterday, I ask asther can led me her bicylce she say can...   Then, she go back to home to take some money want to go buy KFC....   She come tell u better wait her, I come back I want to see u outside or else no bicycle for you...   After she go my feeling tell me that she treating me like dog......   Then I and asther quarrel, and no longer friend........        Because of asther i chance so much she treat like a dog, like a toy....   why my life is like this??????   Friendship cannot last long, recover few days break.... If I die not one can quarrel with any more...   They can be peace in this world without me........................      They don't me around they might feel better in this world.....................

My friend Asther is going to move house on my brithday next year......  why must be on my birthday...   so sad......