Huimin

I don't understand why I want to change but chance people won't give me. Last time I already promise my besties jie jie that I will chance but to last time that huimin and will not do things is not right to hurt my love ones.  I don't know why still no one want to trust me that i will change. I really don't like what i did now, I like what i did last time and last time that huimin have many people love me and dote me.  What i need was a chance to change and i also need time.. I don't understand people don't trust me and don't want give a chance to change and time really will prove everything and nothing is impossible in this world. In this world that is no one is prefect in this world. 这个世界没有人是 十全十美。 、

我不知道为什么那么年轻的我会那么喜欢和热爱传统文化。 第一个我开始接触的是歌台文化。我是一个歌台艺人带我进入歌台让我真正认识了歌台文化，从以前一个不什么喜欢看和不了解的我，接触后才了解歌台的文化是什么，到现在很多歌台艺人认识和喜欢我。第二开始接触的是舞狮文化。在2018年的农历新年，我的朋友带我去一个舞狮团帮忙，后来，我也加入了舞狮团。 从小的我很喜欢看舞狮，那里有舞狮我一定会叫我爸爸和妈妈带我去看，所以那时开始我有个梦想就是要参加舞狮和学舞狮的文化。 当我加入了舞狮团后，我就慢慢去学和了解舞狮的文化。从以前到现在我一直很喜欢舞狮的文化。最后一个我接触的是 华人农历七月的喊标。这个是每年农历七月不能少的一个文化， 我第一次开始接触的时候很辛苦，因为什么都不会到慢慢熟悉后。 还有一件有趣的是我热爱传统文化的精神吸引了记者来报道。 我成对他们说： 我自己本身是希望学了之后，想要保留传统，重点是想保留传统，可以传承就尽量传下去，让我的下一代，或者让更多了解说，这种工作其实不一定是老人可以做的，年轻人也是可以做，只要你有那个心。 所以我一直没有放弃学更多传统文化。 我对传统文化的热爱永远不改变的。I will work hard to keep all the traditional culture and  will bring to make more people understand about it and let them learn and let them know the important of 传统文化。 Joanne Tan 25/05/2020

After all this issues will my life be change, I really very tired of having all this things and I really don't want to have people keep disturb my life and i really very tired and want to have a good and happy life with my family and love ones. I really don't want them to suffer and make them in trouble. I really hope every thing will be good and will be peacefully. This is because i really my love ones to suffer with me and i want to make them happy and enjoy their life happily with me. I really don't want to lose more and more in my life cux i already lose some le and don't want I lose more in my life. I really don't want to lose more thing le,..  Hope everything will be fine sooner.  Lastly,I hope everything can been throw into the sea take it as nothing happened and will be brand new for me, my family and my friends. 我已经失去很多了，我不想再失去更多了。 我会受不了的。 Thanks for people come into my world to save me and always there for me.. 23/05/2020 Joanne Tan

看我长大的一个阿嫲又离开我了。 她是在巴刹收纸皮的。 每天都看到她在巴刹那边收纸皮，我看她辛苦， 她是从小看我长大的一个很开心的一个阿嫲，每天带着笑容的。 When every time I saw her I feel very happy and will always talk to her and she always make happy. She is a very friendly and kind Ah ma  I have met. When I was 3 years old i came her to stay and always met her. Yesterday, heard and saw she pass away I feel very sad. She see me grow from young to now. 你的离开我很伤心，我再也看不到你可爱的笑容了。 再见了！ 您安息吧！

From the time when i say want change to my last time that me and from there i start to change and when the time past all my things that i done previously all was burst in at one time and from there i want to make thing the best in my life but I don't know I cant do and make it the best. I really wish to go back my last time and there are many people like me and dote me. Seriously, I really don't know how, what I can do to make things the best.  I just want my life back to last time and win some one heart back to me.  This is because I really i want to find back last time those happiness we have but is now her heart is with other that why I choose to give up le and Now I just want to do things is right and people think i am not useless but things that i do people make things i am useless.  No matter what i will try my best wont give up easily which is my last time that do things wont give easily..

I feel so bad because you take care of me and you yourself also sick. I really feel so bad to you!!! Thank you for take good care of me. And I want to thank you for 16 Jan 2020 accompany me to see doctor and sorry for make you also get sick and thanks for cook porridge for me and is it very even through is just a white porridge. I still can eat till very happy. In 22 year of life, don't have people cook for me and you are the first one that cook for me. I really very happy to have you by my side and have you as my besties jie jie. You also must take good care of yourself okay. I really don't want you to get sick because when i see you get sick I will heart pain and worry you when you are outside. It has been very long that got people take care me and cook for me. Really you are the best i will cherish you in my whole life. I really don't want to lose you such a nice person and i will not let you leave me so easily. You are mine forever no one change our sister relationsh...

I don't know why my life full of unhappy? I also don't know why. I really feel i am a useless person and always think of of things that i really don't know what happen to my life and really want to end my life just like that. But, i still have friends be there for me but I really don't know what to do now cux i start to lose alot of things in my life and i really hate what i have to do. I just don't know why like that now i am always think things that is not good and i really want give up and my life le..

我知道是我的错不应该骗你，你对我那么好我却骗你。 因为我怕告诉你，你会骂我，所以我对不起你。 我希望你能原谅我。 我真的很对不起你。 我知道错了。 请你原谅我好吗？ 不要对我那么冷淡，我的心很难受的。 不要不理我和不要离开我。 对不起我最爱的姐姐。 

我现在觉得他的出现好像取代了我在你心中的地位了。我每次跟你玩，你都会跟我玩回，现在你反而跟他撒娇我欺负。 虽然，你把我当妹妹，我把你当姐姐，但是我们不像以前了。 不管怎样我都会好好对你。 要我做什么我都愿意，只要你不离开我好了。 谢谢你对我的好。。谢谢你来到我的世界。