Huimin

现在的我慢慢找回以前的我，但是我不知道我要什么？ 因为我已经是有目标的人了。 但是很多事情等着我去完成，我不知道我要的东西几时可以达到。 I already try my best to find back myslef and want to get things that I want but, time has flies and I still unable to get what I want. I really dont't know when can I get what I want. I now have a lot of things waiting for me to settle and also a lots of thing that I have not done.. But, I really very tired le, but what to do this is my promise to some one that I love... I cannot give up easily.  我真的很累，不知道我还可以撑多久。 我很怕我有一天会爆炸。  I really very tired.  我很想放弃了 但是我不能。 到现在我不知道自己要的是什么。 我很累。。 为什么没有人可以理解我做的东西。  No matter what I done people always think that I am bad person, and think that I am always doing the wrong things, I really don't understand why people keep on think in a way of that I am doing wrong things and always think what I do always let people say. I really very tired. I hate my life.  I really want to give up my life. I really cannot take it anymore. I hate being like this.  Is like...

In the first place people tell you things, you promise that won't say out but end up you say out.... Like that how people want to tell things next time....  Really the way you do now is really different from last time before you got Cancer. After you got Cancer your thinking totally different and I don't know what are you thinking.... Really you make me feel bad, I get scolding cuz of you... Nowadays i have change myself to a better person but you still same.... I really hate the way you are now...  I hate you..... I really don't want you this mother..... I really hate you.... You make my life hard...... I hate you very much...... 

When the day come that you have choice to choose who you want it to stay and leave, who u will choose to stay and who u will choose to leave? Nowadays I really don't know why i have all this thinking. Maybe is because thing that happened nowadays makee change alot in my life and I have seen alot of thing that is good and bad and also let me seen alot ppl that who is the good one and bad one.  Nowadays I have think alot of things and want to give up things that is not important to me, friendship that is not important to me. I just want to keep those things is important and cherish those friendship and relationship that is important to me. Last time, I have lose alot things now I want to gain it back and make things different.  No matter what happen some one is always in my heart never change. Those people use to make things unnecessary i will not care so much. I will care those is good for me and cherish what is in my life now.  This is because i finally know who are the o...

I don't know no matter what I do people always have comment on me. When I use my own matter to do things, people always have comment on it. What I do always people don't like me. No matter how much I have change but still there are people still don't like me. Always find me problems, but I don't care what they say bad things on me and I just do what is right for me.  As long as I never do things that wrong and when is things is my wrong i will admit and I will tell the truth. I don't know what u know about me. Just want to say I doing have my right and pls don't judge ppl with ur knowledge.