Huimin

Everytime they give al ots of chance,but I don't take it seriously...  For what I need this friendship seriously ...  I really feel bad..who can help me??? They given me a lots of chance i don't appciate.... My friend name is Asther. she was my neighbour....  Make friend is give friend happy but, I give my friend embarass...  everytime, I quarrel with my mother my house downstair people ask asther you got this kind of friends....    Asher was a nice, kind and helpful girl.. I really love her so much...   she teach me bicycle when i ask her to teach me....   she really a nice girls....

Today I don't know what had happened to me???  suddenly shout at my mother.. I also don't know what happened to me...  I was so scared....  what can I do?? who can help me....   what can i do???    why??? why???  who can help me....

when the time i lose my friendship, I felt sad. no friends beside me... This kind of feeling is really hurt my heart. what can i do get back this friendship.. I lose this friendship because of my temper.. I am a hot temper person.. That i can't control ...  That what the reason no one wants to be my friends..   when Astha told me"we don't want your friendship in fornt of cholthicha.. It really hurt my heart...  I cried many time because of this fiendship break...  why all the bad thing all happened on me??  what the reason that i need this friendship?  I can tell them my problems, when i am boring they can play with me, they also can chit-chat with me..  where are all my friends?? Friends where are you??  Friends can you come back, I really need you beside me...I hope the time can turn back to that time they play with me, chit-chat and tell my problems to them...

Yesterday, I scolded my friends and i am so sad now...   why i became like that...  I need friend to play, share my problem and happiness... I really need friend to help me....  I don't want to be alone in rest of my life..  why no one want to be my friends???   who can tell me???   All my friends had been throw into the sea..  now what i do also no use, cannot help me to get back this friendship.....I really don't want to be alone.....