Being through so much I really don know what I want!!

My life was happy all the time but after so many incident and what other say about me make me like really want to give up my life and go to some world that really make me cant heard what other say about me and enjoy the real life that is belong me!!! Nowadays my life was screw up too much and I have enough of those what other say about behind my back.. Last time starting I was thinking of whack those and teach them some lesson but after i think if i whack them i will go jail.. Then I stop having this kind of mind set.. When time past I start to change myself and stay in my own world but and semold talk to people... But some how I was like feeling I hurt my sister(Linnea Jie jie) because of the way I talk to her is different from last time le...Because my life really screw up too much and I really want to forget everything that is unhappy and start a new life and continue enjoy my happy life with my sister( Linnea Jie jie)  I really love my Linnea jie jie and I want her to be my Jie Jie forever and I really don't want to hurt my Jie jie heart and her feeling.... But I really need to time to relax and cool down and make me mine mind empty on those unhappy things... Go back to normal!! Hope every things will back to normal soon!!!  No matter what I will still love Linnea as my jie jie!!!