27岁的我觉得没有意义

即将在来临的星期三(10 April) 迎来我27岁生日， 但是，最后我自己的妈妈因为我什么都不能吃就不要买蛋糕给我了。  我最爱的妈咪(Irene mummy) 当天又不能留下陪我庆祝， 还说来给我礼物就回家，我听心很痛！！ 为什么要这样对你的乾女儿我？ 为什么不能留下来陪庆祝呢？我可以为了你提早庆祝的。   我多么希望你可以陪我庆祝切蛋糕才回。 最后，你还是坚决说送我礼物了就回。 你已经一年没有陪我过生日了， 今年好不容易你回到我身边希望你可以陪庆祝。 我不知道该怎么办， 所以我才觉得27岁生日没有意义了。刚刚不久收到消息有锣鼓6点半出殡，弄到来都要7点多了，我妈咪回到家都8点多了。 我觉得她应该不会来了。 因为已经很晚了。我太了解她了， 所以我觉得今年的生日我最爱的人又不能陪我过了。 我不知道该怎么办，我真的多么想我最爱的妈咪可以陪我度过。 如果没有我妈咪陪我度过还要什么意义呢？ 27岁的生日真的很孤独， 26岁没有她陪我，27岁也可  能没有了。 我真的不知道该怎么做。 我去年的生日愿望是希望今年我 Irene mummy 可以陪过生日， 看来去年的生日愿望今年实现不到了。 今年的生日我不会再许愿了，因为我许的愿都不会实现的， 所以我决定可能没蛋糕了。我觉得没有这个必要。去年的生日愿望今年都实现不到了， 我还要买蛋糕来干嘛？？？

This coming Wednesday(10 April) I will officially 27 Year old... But this year my 27th birthday is the worst birthday I ever have... It is because my mother does want to buy cake for me just because a lot of things I can't eat that why she don't want to buy for me... Secondly, My lovely Irene mummy might not be celebrating my 27th birthday with me, just because I disrobe her... I don't know why she want to treat me this way, I can push the time early on my birthday for her, just don't know why she can't help me this god-daughter celebrate my birthday?? Like this really make think that my 27th birthday is not meaningful anymore.....  Here come a very bad news........  I just receive that on wednesday have gong guan that is 630pm, by the time end already 7plus and my lovely Irene mummy go home already 8plus and I can feel that she won't be coming because is too late for her..... But I can understand and won't force her to come also....  Once again this year my lovely Irene mummy won't be able to celebrate my birthday with again.... I really don't know what I can do?? I really hope my lovely Irene mummy can celebrate my birthday with me, because without her celebrating with me I feel that is not meaningful any more le...  On my 26th birthday she wasn't there to celebrate with me, and I make a wish on my 26th birthday that I wish my 27th birthday my lovely Irene mummy can celebrate with me... But, again this year because of gong guan unable to celebrate with me again....   This really make think that no matter what wish I have make it won't come true and now I am thinking what is the point of celebrating my birthday??  What is point buying cake and make birthday wishes??  I won't make any birthday wishes this year...  Because what she I have make it won't come true, it really make me feel very sad and not meaningful for it....    I just want my lovely Irene mummy to be there to celebrate with me really make me feel so difficult

But overall, I can understand that work is bo bian de and I have to accept it that my birthday fall on chinese qing ming and really make things all gone de..