我不懂我现在要什么了。

现在的我慢慢找回以前的我，但是我不知道我要什么？ 因为我已经是有目标的人了。 但是很多事情等着我去完成，我不知道我要的东西几时可以达到。 I already try my best to find back myslef and want to get things that I want but, time has flies and I still unable to get what I want. I really dont't know when can I get what I want. I now have a lot of things waiting for me to settle and also a lots of thing that I have not done.. But, I really very tired le, but what to do this is my promise to some one that I love... I cannot give up easily.  我真的很累，不知道我还可以撑多久。 我很怕我有一天会爆炸。  I really very tired.  我很想放弃了 但是我不能。 到现在我不知道自己要的是什么。 我很累。。 为什么没有人可以理解我做的东西。 

No matter what I done people always think that I am bad person, and think that I am always doing the wrong things, I really don't understand why people keep on think in a way of that I am doing wrong things and always think what I do always let people say. I really very tired. I hate my life.  I really want to give up my life. I really cannot take it anymore. I hate being like this.  Is like back to my last time life got bully by people.